I give up

Woke this morning at 6am. Didnt want to get out of bed cause it was after midnight before I shut the light off and didnt sleep well.

Woke the kids. Twins got up and got dressed. JT finally rolled out of bed @620am. When he came out, I asked him what his bg was. *mumble* 'What?' '190!!!!' 'You didnt have to yell just because I didnt hear you the first time. Makes himself toast. I ask him how is it possible that his cousin says she talks to him everyday considering he's grounded off the phone and computer and his cell is 'SUPPOSED' to be out of minutes. Apparently his older brother owed him money and he bought himself a phone card all the while leaving me to believe his cell was off. Whatever. Small battles. He's still grounded and the way he calls and texts, those minutes wont last and Im not renewing them. Reminded him to cover his toast now not later and off they go to the bus stop.

Started watching 'Wolfman' w/ hubby ( thought it sucked myself) while texting a friend. Good thing I did cause she didnt realize there was early dismissal today lol. Invited me over for coffee so I headed over there for awhile. She also made me breakfast which was really nice, :) Talked for a couple hours then headed to town to pick up a few things with my last couple bucks. Thank God its almost payday!!  Making myself a cup of chamomile tea trying to head off this migraine I can feel starting while I enjoy the last half hour of peace and quiet.

Not even home from school and it starts already - texted me asking if he can go to the mall. Ummmmmm NO. Grounded and house arrest. Home and school. Thats it. Nothing else.'Well Im ungrounded tomorrow right?' HELL NO The bitch fest begins.....more later.   

Texting back and forth. Apparently its bullshit that he's grounded cause he didnt do anything. I told him that whats bullshit is the way he talks to me. Whats bullshit is the way he treats me. Whats bullshit is the fact that he snuck out, was missing for hours so that I had to have the cops find him and that he put me thru hell and doesnt even care. He says hes not even gonna be nice anymore ( he was nice? when? I must have missed that) and I wont let him fucking go out. That I say all this shit and its not even true and that I treat him like shit. ?????????? I give up. I really do. Nothing I say or do works. I try talking to him, I try yelling, I try staying really calm. I wont give in and I wont let him get away with everything so i treat him like shit. I cant believe he said that. Im also a liar and cant wait to get rid of him. Where the fuck did I fail???

No more later cause Im done. I just dont give a shit anymore.